I can tell you the truth of my heart because when you handle my heart imperfectly, it’s okay, I forgive you already. You don’t have to love me perfectly. I don’t depend on you for that. You can be human, and you can make mistakes with my heart. Because if you hurt me, if you accidentally ignore me, if you love me imperfectly, I still have perfect love to turn to, to remember, to feel. And so I feel safe with you. And you can feel safe with me too, because I will never expect you to be someone you’re not. We don’t need to be afraid of each other. Perfect love casts out fear.
— Momastery, http://momastery.com/blog/2013/12/04/little-drummer-girl-3/ - I may not believe in Jesus the way Glennon Doyle Melton does, but I do believe in love and that we are here for a reason. I also frequently have no clue what my reason is and get so caught up in wanting to be liked I know I run miles, sometimes thousands of them, afoul of whatever my reason is. My early New Year’s resolution is to get back to that reason, and embrace and live it, 24/7, and to tune out all the rest, no matter how loud and persistent it can be. No matter how many people don’t like me, because who cares if I can’t look at myself in the mirror and like who I see? I didn’t like who I saw for most of this year but I’m slowly embracing her flaws and messes, not trying to pretend they don’t exist. I’m leaning in to those darkest, rawest, most shameful parts of myself, to try to heal them, to forgive myself, and get ready for a new year, and a better way of living. That’s what Glennon’s post made me think about. That and love, the kind she so movingly writes about.
While it’s hard to choose just one book of erotica to cap off the year, The Big Book of Orgasms is definitely up there. Esteemed erotica editor Rachel Kramer Bussel brought together 69 authors for this one, which features a heaping helping of the good stuff — intense, earth-shaking orgasms. As it should be.